Monday, October 25, 2010
Well we'll float on good news is on the way
Dating. Relationships. Love.
I am a romantic at heart. I cry during all sorts of love scenes, I read waaaay too much into song lyrics, and I secretly yearn for flowers and presents 'just because.' I peruse wedding blogs for colour board inspirations, and catch up on baby blogs for tips, although I am nowhere close to having a baby. Having said all that, I do not believe in love at first sight, or even unconditional love. I even get mad sometimes when movies have happy endings.
The phrase 'love at first sight' just seems so arbitrary. For one thing, you don't know a person just by looking at them, so how could you really love them, or even like them? You notice someone based purely on their physical appearance, which means you're more likely to notice a person if something about them makes your special parts tingle.. And that's pure lust, baby. No one has ever said 'I noticed your amazing ability to empathize from across the room and I just had to come and meetcha.'
Although I'm sometimes tempted to poke PN's eyeballs out with my stilettos, I love him dearly. Will I love him forever? Will we get married? Is he 'The One?' Honest answer? I have no friggin' clue, I'm only 20! I know myself enough that I will never say that I will love someone forever. Imagine how stupid I would look if I were to say that, and a week/month/year later, we broke up! Forever is an extremely long time, especially when you're young.
I believe that only one kind of unconditional love exists, and that is the love of a parent for their child. I don't think that significant others are really capable of 'unconditional love.' I believe in standing by your partner through a myriad of problems (health, family, finances, life) but no where in my wedding vows will I ever include infidelity. If PN ever cheated on me, emotionally or physically, you can bet on your grandma's life that his ass is being kicked to the curb, just like mine would be if I were to be unfaithful to him.
At the risk of sounding like a hypocrite, I do still believe in love and commitment, just not the forever kind (at least for right now). And to show that I do have a heart and not just a lump of coal, one silly thing that I love about PN is that he likes to comb my hair.